What’s up? I hope you are good. Well, I know you are good because you are still working. So I’ve started a new thing where I’m working on taking pictures of myself…appropriate pictures.
I’m not really what you would called confident in my look. I have body issues but you are already aware of this . Because of these body issues, I don’t really like to take pictures of myself. I bet you are wondering why I don’t like pictures of myself, well here’s a bulletpoint list of why I don’t like pictures of myself:
- I look like a 16 year old
- My face has broken out with acne that hasn’t seem to go away
- I’m not big on what my body looks likes
- I only think I look good in certain clothing
- I don’t think I look cute
- I don’t like how I look in certain angles…which is most
I could go on and on but I don’t want to shit on myself more so than I already do. I’m pretty much my biggest critic. I think it was the fact that my parent’s provided “constructive criticism” most of my life didn’t do much to help with this. Getting told as a 10 year old that you need a lose a couple pounds, comments about your hair, or told about the littlest thing that you might not like probably has that affect on you. It’s probably the reason why I style my hair now, as well as work out. Now If only I can fix the fact acne.
I’ve decided to get over my insecurities and go with it. If we just stopped caring about our insecurities, then we would be so much happier. While I work out, I’m still not overly confident. My motto lately has been “fuck it.” I’ve been getting a little more comfortable in my own skin when I’ve been thinking that way. I think we all should. If we focus less on the little things, then we could focus on the positive things.
Let’s just take the things we hate about ourselves and improve them or just forget about them. Love yourself for you. Screw those that want to point out your flaws and just pick at them. I’ve had many people like that in myself and it took me a while to realize that I would have a much better time without them in it. Spoiler: I was right.
So here’s my first selfie that I personally like and don’t think that I look like trash in. Here’s to a more positive outlook on myself. If I’m more confident, then other’s will be too. Okay, so now I’m sounding very preachy. Fun fact: I took this selfie on Instagram using their focus filter in their camera. I was actually shocked at this. They have a lot of cool features and filter in there. Still won’t post on there, mainly because my mother likes to like things I post that doesn’t have to do with things she doesn’t agree with. Yes, there was a little bit of passive aggressive shade there. I’ll get into that later.
Thank you for being there and being a good listener. I’ll talk to you later.
P.S. Since we are now dating, make sure you follow me on Twitter and Instagram. I’m like the social media mogul version of Tinkerbell. Just instead of people believing I exist, I need those follows to live.