It’s been awhile. Sorry for not talking to you for a while. I’ve been going through some stuff and I just needed some time to think and process things. It’s nothing too serious but it was just me in my head. Anyways, I read an article online and it made me take a look at my life and how I’m doing things. Don’t worry, it wasn’t anything like WebMD. I go to “Grey’s Anatomy” for wondering if I’m going to die due to illness, plane crash, shooting, drowning, ferry-boat, and/or unnoticed diseases. It was an article about dating and reasons why you might not being able to find anyone. You already know my thoughts on dating.
I would send you a link for it but I don’t remember where I saw it. But it listed a bunch of reasons and one of those reasons was about trying too hard. And then when I really had to take a look at how I’m handling things and go “Am I trying too hard?” Honestly, I really don’t think I am to a certain degree. While I’m not surrounding my life to finding a man, it would be nice. It would just be nice have someone to be around during these cold winter month. It is cuffing season. I’m also not putting my self-worth around finding one either. Like I said, it would just be nice. Anyway, I decided to take a look at how I’m approaching it and look at it from the eyes of someone else.
I’m on way too many dating apps. Like I have them mixed in with my social media folder, but there’s like five on my phone. Most people just have one of the “der” as I like to call them. I have two. So in that respective, I’m trying way too hard. I don’t need that many apps. I really many only need two. I really don’t know why I need that many apps. I guess it’s because I really don’t have a life. I worked so long and horrible hours that I wasn’t able to find a life. I think it got lost in the mail after college. Man, I miss college and having a life. ugh.
I think that we all need to take a step back from life and just see how we are doing things and how’s other may perceive it. While we don’t want to base our opinions of ourselves off of others, it’s nice sometimes to know “So this is what other people see/or think when my name comes up.” It gives you idea of what you can do to improve your self and the perception of yourself. Only do this for the people who matter to you. Now if you don’t see anything wrong, then don’t change yourself.
Thank you for listening to my ranting. Talk to you see love 🙂
P.S. Since we are now dating, make sure you follow me on Twitter and Instagram. I’m like the social media mogul version of Tinkerbell. Just instead of people believing I exist, I need those follows to live.